Swedish Viking Experiencing Chastity

Roughly a decade back I figured out my submissive nature after years of being dominant. Shortly thereafter, I recognized a sex addiction encompassing love, sexual activity, and masturbation. I became part of Sex Addicts Anonymous. After about a year of ups and downs where I felt self-loathing, I entered chastity. At first it was pure torture, but it worked for me. I also began dating dominant women as a cuckold, which had mixed results with stops and starts. I returned to being dominant (and unlocked) but quickly fell back into old habits, so now I’m submissive and locked again. Despite wanting to be dominant and being good at it, I just can’t do it.

I moved to Denmark for a change of scenery. On June 1st, 2016, I put my cock in chastity, where it has stayed since. I feel very happy and free. I remove the cage at night and while exercising at the gym, but its main purpose is to prevent home masturbation during relaxation time, which it successfully does. Since then, I haven’t masturbated or been touched to orgasm, exactly as desired.

I met an amazing woman here in Copenhagen who is dominant and perfect—intelligent and beautiful. For a while, I was her owned slave. For reasons that aren’t entirely clear, we broke up after just a couple of months; perhaps it was too intense for me.

I am not bisexual at all, being 100% straight, but I still date gay men now. Humiliation is something I enjoy, and getting fucked by men definitely fits into that category.

My dream remains to be with a dominant woman in a real relationship eventually, whether as her slave or not is another question entirely, though I doubt I’m quite ready for it yet.

Sexually, I only take penetration via the ass now. I enjoy both being fucked and fisted. I often wear butt plugs. While this might seem like more sex addiction, it isn’t; I’ve gotten very good at telling the difference. I also appreciate straightforward denial, focusing solely on my partner’s needs. My cock stays locked during sex—a demand of mine that is non-negotiable.

My time as a cuckold was lots of fun. I loved driving to pick up my domme’s or goddess’s lover, waiting around, and then driving him home again. The best part was licking her clean—wiping off his cum from her pussy and cleaning it thoroughly—as well as helping prepare before and tidy up after. Then cuddling through a movie before bed.

This only happened a couple of times, but those were the best experiences of my entire life.

Anyway, that is my journey. I am still somewhat lost in life, but significantly less so than before.

Tom of Sweden, eh? Any relation to... ah, never mind, it's probably just my imagination. 8-) Anyhow, is this the start of your blog here? If so, just read through the caveats at the top of the page.