Female led relationships discussion

I have been ordered to post an apology to my Wife on this site. Last night, while she was sick in bed, i was trying to find the key so i could escape for a while. i was tiptoeing around in the dark, in her closet, in her panty drawer digging for the key. i didn’t find it, and thank God i didn’t wake her up! I crawled into bed and tried to think about nonsexual things until i finally fell asleep. i know i am weak in this regard, but it’s been almost 2 weeks! i’ve never gone this long! i confessed what i did tonight and she was not happy with me, rightly so! How could i even attempt to do this when she’s feeling so sick! i was not an obedient slave and certainly not worthy of her trust. I really feel bad for even thinking about my own desires when she’s sick. i promise to be a better slave and to make it up to her. Ms T’s Slave