Introductions discussion

I’m fairly new to really diving into my submissive fantasies, though I’ve been dreaming about them since age fifteen. As a college student just starting out in life, past relationships that didn’t work have taught me that being the one in charge isn’t for me. So, what I need is advice on how to become the best sub possible. I’ve already begun looking after my physical health more closely: eating better and swapping weightlifting for cardio (aiming for healthy without becoming too bulky), plus growing out my hair because it’s always been a dream of mine and feels right for submission. Right now, I’m saving up for an MM Jailbird lock; everyone seems to recommend it, and after being burned by ill-fitting devices before (like getting locked when not ready), I can’t afford another mistake. My ideal situation is holding me in chastity under a loving dom who truly cares for me with both tenderness and sensuality, yet knows how to wield her power to keep me on the edge of fear while satisfying our deeper, slightly kinkier needs. Who am I kidding? Hers (and mine). The hard part is finding such a woman. If anyone has suggestions on where to look, that would be great too. But if I find my dom in every sense, it feels rare enough that missing her might mean she doesn’t come back again:(. How do I impress a dom who wants a loving, lifelong sub and future husband? What’s expected of me, and how should I mindset myself so that her word is law and nothing else matters? New to this, feeling confused but humbly asking for guidance from experienced doms and fellow subs alike. Any advice would be hugely appreciated.