Female led relationships discussion

I had my doctor visit today so my KH/Wife left me the key to unlock my CD just before I headed out, which I did. The appointment went well (as good as a pre colonoscopy can go). I wouldn’t have needed to take it off after all but took it with me and locked up in their bathroom before leaving. It felt wonderful to be secured again. Texted my wife to let her know that I was lock-ed again. Can’t understand why I feel like I was cheating by not having it on.