Introductions discussion

Hi there,

To give you some background on my situation, I have a neurological issue that seems pretty rare. The best way to describe it is like blindsight but for pleasure. If you don’t know what blindsight is, it’s something that happens after specific brain injuries where individuals lack conscious visual perception yet can still carry out visual activities, such as slotting an envelope correctly.

I appear to have a parallel condition: I feel zero enjoyment when getting a reward, though it isn’t depression since my drive for rewards remains normal. My exceptions are the joy of looking forward to something (anticipation feels thrilling and positive) and pleasure derived from oxytocin, like what happens during human contact. Therefore, I’m mainly viewing this as an opportunity to boost those specific types.

My first worry involves ruined orgasms. I’ve noticed others mention that a ruined orgasm impacts submissive energy differently than a standard one does. However, I often ruin my own because they don’t feel materially different from normal ones, plus there’s less mess afterwards—it doesn’t seem to trigger blue balls either; I suspect the fluid goes back into the bladder instead. Does this suggest that using chastity to build anticipation might not work well for me?

Another question concerns insomnia. Since I was around 14, I’ve struggled to drift off unless I masturbate first. This is tricky on days when I have zero desire and spend hours wondering why sleep won’t come until it dawns on me that I haven’t done so yet. Did anyone else experience this before starting chastity? If so, how long did the issue last?

Lastly, regarding some sizing rings from MM: the biggest size that stays put for a few hours causes my scrotum to turn purple and go cold as soon as an erection starts; I assume this shouldn’t happen. While researching, I read that devices usually cause pain when erect—an “erotic pain” which I doubt I can feel—and are generally more painful in the cold. Is there a solution? I considered piercing cages but couldn’t figure out their mechanism; most seem to cover just the head of the penis, which feels insufficient. Could one place a piercing above the shaft and attach the cage there instead of using a ring? It seems plausible enough.

I don’t think I could manage without a cage because when I’m down—most recently adjusting to new medication—I masturbate every 20 minutes while alone, even though it gets more painful each time, and I can’t stop myself.

Thanks in advance for any advice!