Female led relationships discussion

Ive always fantasized being blackmailed by a dominant woman who holds photos and videos of me. While surfing the net for such Ladies I have found many who are pro “play for pay” and read their sales pitch. I must say they know what a blackmail victim desires. I find it such a turn on to know (fantasize) I have no choice but to obey my blackmailer when told to do things I very much dislike. It turns me on to think of spending my life in total obedience to my owner. Reading the websites of Dommes offering blackmail,and looking at their iron clad contracts that require the victim to submit the names addresses of family, friends, bosses co-workers etc, and reading there warning that this is for real and some even post websites of their men victims who tried backing out and there they are in full photo naked and there addresses and phone numbers posted,with the suggestion we call the home and talk to the family member who answers and give them the web address. I feel like a moth flying nearer and nearer to the flame. As I mentioned on here I met a Dominant Lady I drive around and run errands for, she whips me with her belt from time to time,but I loose interest after a week or so and usually don’t reply to her texts for several months . This time Iv’e been catering to her for over two weeks and after talking about our likes and dislikes I’m growing more used to being her sissy bitch full time. I bought a jailbird cock cage and we agreed that I will wear it and keep the key until the chaffing stops. At that time we will go to the locksmith and she will take possession of the keys to the new pick proof padlock I will buy. This is very much a turn on, but I know I can always cut the lock off and be out of her life. Recently I have asked her to photograph me as I scrub her toilet while naked and kneeling by her vacuum, She has taken the photos and emailed them to . Once a year or so when I was ignoring her texts she thinly hinted at using the photos from back then against me if I didn’t respond, so I’m confident she wouldn’t hesitate if I gave her written permission like maybe a blackmail contract. My dilemma is that I can see myself in a sexual frenzie signing such a thing and being sure there is no way out, but deep inside I know I will at some point loose interest. While I’m in my sexual high the thought of loosing interest but still being forced to obey every command is very stimulating. That’s all I can think of writing,I know its like two completely different moods, but I’m a pisces and we chase our own tails.