Introductions discussion

Since the forum kindly invited me to describe myself, here I am. I’ll mention things that aren’t in my FetLife profile because finding it unnecessary to write a full one…A full one…not that anyone really cares lol. Anyway, as of today, it appears I’ve come out of denial since my Miss got very busy and doesn’t have time for me anymore, so here I am on this chastity forum without actually being in either chastity or denial. I’m a transsexual woman with a long list of fetishes and years of community experience. I’ve had several D/s relationships where I was denied. To be honest, I’m not 100% submissive; that’s why I prefer bondage as the rigger rather than the bunny, but when I commit to being a sub for a Domme, I do so completely. I haven’t tried a switch relationship yet, though in my view it would be hard to separate my submissive and dominant sides unless it was some kind of vanilla submission with temporary rules and such. I’m not sure about that yet. I think this is because I am more masochistic than sadistic and tend to submit quite deeply. But back to chastity/denial, since describing my entire BDSM identity can be a long lecture. I enjoy being denied through my masochistic side. Of course, I enjoy having an orgasm; I consider myself a very orgasmic girl who can have multiple or prolonged ones, but I always tend to overdo it like a sex addict. So for me, denial is the more normal state compared to being a high-sex-drive freak lol (not that some people wouldn’t appreciate that, wink wink). In my opinion, denial must be part of a more complex relationship. This means I could never see myself being denied by someone close or long-distance without active involvement and building a close bond that also includes teasing and other forms of power exchange. Furthermore, I am definitely not into paying for it. Lol, I’m an adult model too, and I know when money is involved, the relationship becomes mechanical in nature, which isn’t really my thing. Sure, if I were to have a true live-in relationship with my partner (whether Domme or switch), then of course the financial aspect would be part of it. As for other people’s misunderstanding of trans women, I feel it’s necessary to say that I am not into sissyfication. Let’s add some logic here. I think, act, and dress like a woman. Sure, I can behave like a baby or a slut or whatever, but those are things I actually enjoy and find they aren’t humiliating for me. And even if I’m only looking for a female Domme, in fact I am bisexual, so sexual activities related to men aren’t humiliating either. When it comes to chastity, it’s a little tricky. A cage isn’t always possible, especially because I have an athletic body and am overall quite hot (and modest lol). Since I do wear tight-fitting clothes, having a visible cage wouldn’t be humiliating; it would just look plain stupid and invite trouble, especially in a close-minded society. But either way, it’s not like I’d be masturbating while walking downtown lol, although… hmm… nah, forget about that lol (exhibitionism overload). The reason I mentioned this is because being locked for long periods is impossible for me, so the whole denial thing must rely on trust. If there isn’t trust, then to hell with it, because a cage isn’t a 100% infallible device after all. Regarding teasing and edging: for me, edging during long-term denial is actually a form of release. If the purpose is increasing frustration, then edging decreases it for me, linking back to my orgasmic nature and the fact that I can feel pleasure in many ways. I was almost close to an orgasm just by being licked! And don’t even get me started on anal because purr, I can have some super orgasms that way. Due to my hormone therapy, my cock doesn’t function like a man’s anymore, which is great for me, but regarding denial, it is hard for me to get erect without actually touching myself. This works perfectly if I wear tight clothes or a short/tight skirt, but it makes being an instrument of teasing more difficult. I find it very frustrating to be made to get hard without touching. So in the end, because I don’t want to keep writing forever: being a trans woman is different from both female and male, even if I am much closer to female than male. That’s why denial/chastity must adapt more to me than to others. Why am I here? Well, mostly out of curiosity for now, but since I’m not in denial anymore, who knows… I might find someone with whom I can connect deeper than just regular chat. As a person who has traveled and is quite smart, I can say that in matters of love and attraction, there are no borders. PS: Intelligence (the smarty pants factor) is definitely the most important element for me in a relationship, and kink is possible without total compatibility. That’s why it’s impossible for me to just jump into an instant power exchange. Our minds must be mutually stimulated, which takes time but eventually proves rewarding. Patience is a virtue:D