Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Last week after three weeks of being locked in an HT2, I took out the device without using the key while my wife, who is also my key holder, was watching. We had aimed for forty days total, but I needed relief and decided to handle it myself with her present. Rather than re-locking me, she removed the device entirely and hasn’t put it back on yet; several days have passed since then. I’m unsure if or when I’ll go back in. Even without wearing it, I haven’t been masturbating, so I’ve gone thirty-three days without an orgasm, but being out of the chastity cage makes me feel like a failure and quite disappointed. It has dampened my desire and left me emotionally unstable. I can’t figure out why my key holder doesn’t realize I want back in the device, yet she isn’t taking any steps to put it on again. Here I am, stuck in limbo: not really in chastity; not keen on having an orgasm; lacking lust; feeling off-kilter, while my key holder carries on as if nothing is wrong and shows no clear commitment to completing our original agreement of forty days in the device. I hesitate to ask her to put it back because that feels like giving up some femdom spirit. Please share any advice you have, but mostly this is a venting session to get these feelings off my chest. Best, -js

Perhaps the lack of great sex with an eager lover has made things feel booooring! Some women really want to be desired and enjoy some fun over the kitchen counter. She might think you no longer find her attractive enough for a bit of afternoon delight. Your letter seemed entirely focused on you and your device. Xx Wendy