Female led relationships discussion

I’ve been wearing my chastity device for four and a half months without any releases or stimulation, and over the weekend, my wife/mistress told me she has never been happier with how well I behave nor more joyful in her life. She mentioned that she doesn’t really see why she would ever need to unlock me again if my happiness truly depends on hers. Since that is the case, I feel like I have no choice but to reply: “Whatever brings you the most pleasure, Mistress.” Still, it can be frightening when I let myself want things back, particularly during those evenings when I’m allowed to give her oral relief. I’m curious if anyone else finds themselves in a similar spot and whether sacrificing that much keeps them happy constantly. I’ll own up that the gratitude from my Mistress feels better than any sexual gratification for me, but it remains difficult sometimes. DLB