Female led relationships discussion

I talked things over with my KH, and she’s given me the green light to get pierced. She has no issue if it doesn’t happen; she understands it will hurt and that her penis will end up with a hole in it. I want to do this for her—it is the most personal gift I can offer, proving truly that I belong to her. Rings come off, tattoos fade or change, but a hole in the penis lasts forever. Yes, it offers better security and makes it harder to wiggle free for a yank, though I don’t really need that extra restriction. I am perfectly capable of keeping my hands off myself, yet this is about giving myself entirely to another person. I am doing something I fear deeply, with no other benefit to me besides helping her secure her cock permanently. It feels like such a huge step for me. I have never stolen an orgasm before, but I knew I had the ability to. I plan to start with an 8 gauge ring. I will begin saving money for the device now, get pierced next week, and order the device as soon as possible. I am scared and excited, hoping my tongue can keep up during recovery.