Female led relationships discussion

I turned twenty-six on the day. This round of chastity began eleven days prior to that date. It doesn’t sound like much to some, but it feels like forever to others. I brought a classic perspective into this: whips, teasing, denial, and worship. But quickly enough, I understood that my keyholder holds all the cards where I’m concerned. I thought she would demand daily homage from me while keeping me perpetually wound tight. Instead, she lets me touch her unless she specifically says otherwise. It’s thrown me off balance somewhat, yet it has helped me see clearly how much authority she truly wields. By withholding permission for me to bring her pleasure or reach orgasm herself, she has pushed me into a state of bewildered submission where I’m always on the defensive. Still, I appreciate that dynamic; I enjoy her holding sway. On my birthday yesterday, I assumed I would finally be unlocked and permitted to cum for the first time in this arrangement. She allowed it, but I made sure she spoiled the moment just right. I didn’t want my devotion or attitude toward her to drop simply because of my own selfish desires. After that dull, leaking release which felt ruined rather than satisfying, I helped her reach orgasm and then shifted my mind—I no longer desperately wanted a complete one myself. Since it was already past midnight and technically not my birthday anymore, she refused me and had me re-lock the device. Never have I felt so lowly before a woman. She is definitely in charge here, and I hope she expands that control even more.