Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Alright. I have tried to open this topic in the thread about uncaged chastity and it seems it is lost there (although at least it relive that interesting topic). As I think a lot of guys here may be in similar situation I would start this as thread on its own. So… after long time in Ds relationship where I was kept chaste I am in situation I am alone without keyholder. As submission is important part of my personality I cannot say all these things dissapeared suddenly as the relationship ended. It was several years long and during that times I have learned some routines. The rules I had to adhere I accepted as a normal part of my everyday life. Moreover I have to say the lifestyle I have lived made me feel good and it suited me well. In current situation I try to continue to adhere most of rules even I am alone. Of course some of them are less suitable for life of a singler, but many of them were pretty practical and I am able to continue without feeling I am doing anything strange. However even as I am natural sub there are moments when I am tempted to be more relaxed and lenient and put this discipline level far inches lower than it used to be. But everytime it happens and I made some shortcut I always feel guilty or at least something deeply in me tells me I should do better. If I can speak about topic of chastity (which is just one of many topics I am writing in this thread), even it has been few months I have still not misbehaved, but I have not worn chastity device as I used to. Today, after a discussion with one lady, it made me think about it again and even I never broke mental chastity, I restrained myself again and put my device on again. Another interesting and new thing I have to deal with was quite unexpected. I assumed the most difficult aspect will be problem with lack of self discipline in this new situation. But as I explained above, it is less difficult than I thought. The far more difficult is how to channel the submissive desire when there is no woman I belong or who control me. After many years in chastity/FLR/Ds relationship this never was an issue. But now the perspective is radicaly different. I feel there is strong desire in me to submit someone and each day being chaste the desire is stronger. I would not explain this as sexual desire only - even if there is probably strong sexual part of it. I can speculate a lot of guys would idenify this is “horniness” a desire for sexual release, but I feel it is more complicated and refined and dealing with it as a with simple sexual desire “wanting to cum” seems to be degradation of this desire. It doesn’t mean I would consider sexual desire as anything wrong, but it seems to me this is somethig more layered and dealing with it in just sexual way is ignoring its other layers. I would be interested how this see others if there are people in similar situation.