Introductions discussion

Hello! I usually go by Essarya here. I’m a bit of an oddity—a 24-year-old college student who is currently navigating a peculiar phase in life. I have a passion for video games and porn, and I play the guitar. I’ve recently become single because my ex-fiancé didn’t appreciate how my personality shifted as I came to terms with being bisexual and having a semi-submissive, feminine core beneath my everyday public face. On most days, I slip between masculine and feminine expressions quite smoothly, choosing whichever feels more natural, though there are times when it’s a real struggle not to spend money on hormones. While I enjoy crossdressing, I mostly keep it private by wearing panties; I haven’t built up the wardrobe or the body confidence yet to feel entirely at ease going out in public.

Today marks my first day of chastity, and surprisingly, it feels more comfortable than expected. My decision was driven partly by a tendency to over-masturbate (up to 13 times on tough days), which began affecting my studies and daily routine, and partly because being chaste is a huge turn-on when I’m feeling feminine. This isn’t meant to be a strict 24/7 commitment; it will mostly apply during the week while I attend classes, do homework, or simply wish to embrace a more submissive, female vibe. I stumbled upon this community after searching for guidance on assembling a CB-6000S following a few incorrect attempts. After reading through many threads here, I felt confident enough to join and introduce myself. It seems like the perfect spot to connect with others and pick up fresh viewpoints.