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Hi gang, I don’t know if I’ll post to a thread here often or not, but I thought I’d start one and see if the mood overtakes me. As I mentioned in my “intro” post, my Wife is pretty vanilla, and I’m a total perv. I made the mistake of falling in love before I really understood my kinky side. Silly me! We’ve been together 20+ years and our sex life is basically non-existent. We love each other, but sex has fallen by the wayside. She has lost her libido, while mine rages as ever, and my kinky side goes completely unsatisfied. Ugh.. lol. She just woke up, and it’s time for breakfast. More later…

Thank you mike. I always enjoy reading the "normal-side-of-life" blogs, which is why I started mine! It's refreshing to see how other people cope (as you said in my Journal:angel:). It will be especially interesting to see how you incorporate your kinky side into a vanilla relationship.:kiss:

Ahh, where was I? lol. Ahh, so I've been interested in chastity first and foremost, but that led to more of an interest in BDSM. I met some online friends via a chastity IRC channel years ago, which led to my Wife and I going to our first BDSM play party. My Wife as intrigued. She was most interested in the dress-up aspects, I think. She loves to go shopping for Domme clothes in the goth shops, although she has little interest in BDSM play at home. Instead, we went to a few play parties, and my online friends flogged me while she watched. We all tried to teach her a little bit, but it remains something that just doesn't capture her imagination. Meanwhile, Chastity play has remained something I've wanted to do. Like the protagonist in my "Progressive" story, I long to be a belted sex slave to a Domme. It's been a fantasy that's been with me for as long as I can remember. So, I've dabbled in a few chastity devices. I bought a cb2k and cb3k. I could pull out of either trivially. I got a frenum and PA over the years, both of which migrated. I got discouraged and sort of gave up on it for a while. I tried to put thoughts of a kinky lifestyle and chastity out of my head, since it wasn't working out and just causing frustration both personally, and between my wife and I. Well, that didn't work either. A few months ago, I resolved I was going to renew my efforts toward a chastity-belted lifestyle. More later. I'm home from work this week, working on some remodeling projects, and break time is over! hehe.

OK, we made some good progress on the shower stall replacement project. I can goof off and complete this. lol. Anyway, I've wanted to be belted for SO long, I felt I HAD to do something, or I'd go crazy. So I set out a five year plan. I'm kinda anal about planning (sometimes), and somehow, this really got me motivated. The plan is really rather simple. First, each year I will TRY to do something reasonable to achieve the ability to be belted 24/7. This year, it's another attempt at a PA. Next year would probably be the same, though at the moment my PA is healing quite nicely (4 weeks old now). Down the road, if that doesn't work, I'd probably try ordering a Neosteel. Even the threads about hypnosis caught my eye as an option. I'm very active at the gym, so a Neosteel would have its problems. My Lori tube, or hypnosis strike me as the most viable options. Once I get the ability to wear a device 24/7, my plan is to do so. I'll be under my own control, of course, but I want to break myself in to a device for full time wear. Once I can wear a device 24/7, I plan to do so for the duration of my 5 year "grand experiement", granting myself releases as I go, of course. If at the end of 5 years, I'm sick of it, well, at least I'll have done something about my fantasies, rather than just dreamed. Meanwhile, as I wait for a device that works, I've decided to do two things. First, no matter what device I wear, I'll end up setting to pee. So, I decided, I'll just start doing that now. It's just a constant daily reminder of my goals. Second, I won't masturbate daily, as has been my fashion for most of my life. Instead, I'll regulate my orgasms by one game or another. It may be random, or something else, but I just won't have free access to orgasms any more. Just those few little "resolutions" have scratched the "kinky" itch for me, even though my wife isn't participating in it at all. In fact, I haven't even talked to her about it. I doubt it would interest her. I've also got some "endurance" chastity games planned. A three month stint this year, four months next year, then five, then six. My final year would be a full year of chastity, if I don't have a keyholder at that point. If I should get to the point of 24/7 wear again, I'll address the issue of keyholding with my wife again. The first time we tried, she felt pressured and ended up just sticking the keys on a hook by the front door. Not exactly my fantasy. Still, even if I can't get her to be the FemDom I'd love her to be, having her hold the keys to restrict my orgasms would be better than nothing. I might hope to just tell her to hold the keys for a certain time, and if I whine or complain, then just give them back and we won't "play". If she takes to it, who knows?!? If she doesn't, I'd probably just build myself a timed keysafe. Anyway, that's the plan, unless her absent libido finds it's way home. I wish I had that problem! lol. Well, enough for now. Perhaps I'll write about the end of my 3 month "stint" in a future blog. It was certainly an orgasm (or two, or three) to remember.:-)