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I am new on here, and not sure which room to post this in, so if I’m wrong will someone please correct me? Where to begin.? I have been in the lifestyle for most of my adult life, but I have recently met the most fantastic Dominant Woman. Before, whenever I met a new Domme online, I couldnt help myself and I would fantasize and pleasure myself, thinking about Her and whatever situation She wanted. It was usually a Dominant that wanted a slave. I’ve tried to just jump in and be a slave, several times, but it never worked out. There was no emotional connection usually. This time I’ve met someone that is so special to me, like a dream come true.. Immediately when I started talking to Her, I felt different this time.. She wanted me in chastity very early on when we started talking. I had a Bon4 stainless device that I had been trying to get used to, and I locked myself up for Her.. The device started rusting on the cage and left me with a painful infection.. Anyway, I took it off, and am now on my 19th day of self control, as we are not together in person yet. I knew right away that I never want to disappoint this fantastic, beautiful Goddess. I also never want to lie to Her, so it’s been very easy for me to stay orgasm free so far.. I will be locked up soon as we get a suitable device, and She tells me that it will be part of me forever. I look so forward to devoting my life to Her. Instead of laying in my bed fantasizing about Her, and the things She wants to do to me, I instead lay and think of Her awesomeness. I pray to God and give thanks. I am ready to make the final step and surrender to a beautiful, loving, strict Goddess with a beautiful heart and soul. I am ready for a lifetime of obedience to Her loving Female Authority. I think can remain chaste for Her indefinitely without a device… But I look forward to having that option taken from me… It’s coming soon, I have no doubt about that. I have waited for this for so long. I never gave up hope, and suddenly She is here,guiding me with Her power from over a thousand miles away. Life is so good!! Thank You God! Thank You Goddess Monica!