Female led relationships discussion

My keyholder left me last night and gave back the things I’d given her. It seems I fell short of what she expected. How disappointing. I’m feeling quite low this morning. Unlocking myself to masturbate is crossing my mind. Since I’ve been locked for 14 days now, I want to stick with it for another 18 days until my birthday arrives. I wonder if I have the mental fortitude to stay locked without someone else holding the key. I hope to locate a local keeper in the Baltimore vicinity soon. It’s just so tough right now; I feel really down.