Female led relationships discussion

I checked out several professional domes advertising KH services, but they weren’t compelling enough for me to recommend them. I had one-time visits with each of them. Oh, there was one I absolutely loved, unfortunately she only stayed in town for a week and comes back 3 or 4 times a year. Having gone to many kinky gatherings and belonged to various groups, I always noticed that the ratio is four sub men for every dominant woman. These guys look quite lonely watching on their own. I was with my attractive common-law wife during all of this. I looked at Backpage (put any city name next ).and selected domination and fetish categories, where there are consistently plenty of ads running. My idea back then was to find a relationship with an appealing KH who would cost less than a non-pro wanting lots of my time, making me run errands and abuse me even when I’m not really in the mood for it . As it happens, tomorrow I am committing myself to my long-term on-and-off again non-pro Lady, handing her the keys to my padlock on my jailbird. it feels very erotic thinking of surrendering myself to her. I’m fantasizing about asking her to take pictures of me in quite embarrassing poses and keeping them above my head as proof that I won’t escape for months at a time anymore . Not sure if I will suggest photo/videos, but while I am caged it is certainly attractive. The thing is while locked up I am always aroused. We are not lovers,just two people who share a mutual need. My Queen has never permitted me to hug,kiss,or cuddle with her,and I have no desire to do so either . That’s whu a pro Domme seemed interesting.