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It has been a good day; first off, I have had no issues with my CB6000, and then my keeper demanded I give her a body massage before proceeding to cuff me, release me, and then demand oral pleasure, which I gave in slight discomfort but enjoyed all the same. She then rolled away, joking about placing a bag of frozen peas on her penis to get me back into my device. This seemed like a joke at first, but she proceeded to lock me up again—I think and hope that she has finally realized this lifestyle is about her pleasure, not mine. Although I would have loved some attention (as I haven’t cum properly for nearly 5 days), I feel really warm/frustrated inside. I also told her that from now on, I will not try to initiate these encounters in any way so she has complete control; this too will be frustrating, and I hope she uses it as an opportunity to empower her sexuality rather than a way of putting it off. I would like her to write into our contract that any attempts I make to prompt these sessions will lead to a penalty (i.e., 2 days further incarceration). Here’s to the BITCH in my beautiful, gorgeous, loving partner.