Introductions discussion

Alright, where should I begin? At 44 years old, single and submissive with a masochistic streak, I have always dreamed of being kept in chastity as a sissy cuckold. I am strongly drawn to powerful feminine women who wear lingerie and stylish, hot looks that appear harmless or ordinary to the public eye. Yet, behind closed doors and among those who know her well, she loves taking charge.

Unfortunately, my previous Female Led Relationship ended badly because even though I knew I was meant to be submissive to my Mistress and serve her wants, none of my own needs as a submissive were truly satisfied. She rarely wore stockings, refused to let me cross-dress, and keeping me locked in chastity was completely out of the question.

Eventually, she left me for a more dominant man, which is when I realized she wasn’t the Mistress I had believed her to be.

I stayed single for a bit and tried conventional dating, but felt like something was missing from my service. Now, I am left wondering… can a submissive find true happiness serving a dominant woman without sacrificing his fetishes and needs? That is exactly where I stand in this exploration right now. Sadly, I’m 44—not young anymore—and it feels like women of my age have moved on from this lifestyle. I worry that I may have missed the chance to truly understand what a loving, mutually rewarding FLR can offer.

Still, it remains what I long for most, and so here I am…