Female led relationships discussion

My kh and I are just beginning our journey. It’s been difficult because sometimes I hesitate to agree with her requests, which has discouraged her from doing certain things; spanking me with the hairbrush is one example. Now I encourage her to do it, but she doesn’t want to. Tonight I plan to tell her to ignore me since I truly have no idea what actions I will take or not take. Sometimes I think I do know. I am resolved to see this through regardless of what happens. If thi is indeed what I desire, I just need to man up. Does anyone else start off like this?

When my Wife first attempted to introduce me to chastity I refused for many years. After gradually giving in and some experimenting with it, I am now subserviant thanks to her training.