Female led relationships discussion

I shared in another thread that I wanted my kh to discipline me when she was disappointed with me, but she held back for some reason. So I bought Ingrid Bellemare’s book on training a male slave via Amazon. My hope was that it would help her overcome her resistance to punishing me. Before the delivery arrived, however, doubts crept in. I worried it might be too much for her and that she would get turned off by it. Well, one day while I was at work, it showed up. When I got home, we started talking about the book, and soon it was clear she had read every page that very same day. During our chat, she mentioned taking a questionnaire from the book to gauge her desire for having a male slave, revealing she scored VERY high. She let me review her answers, which made it obvious she truly wanted to punish, humiliate, and cause pain. She actually possesses quite a few sadistic and controlling traits. I never would have guessed this about my sweet, thoughtful, kind, vegan fiancé. But after discussing it, she confirmed it was true. So, I expressed that I really desired those things as well. She agreed that I should start pushing harder for punishment now that we both knew it’s what she wanted. The cat is definitely out of the bag! She has whipped me twice since then. I can’t believe how joyful she looked after our first beating; she was absolutely glowing! I’ve never seen her wear her key around her neck with such satisfaction, and I loved watching that moment. She also admitted to using her egg vibrator the next day while thinking about how red my back became during her whipping. It really aroused her. She ensured I had cleaned it for her as well (which of course I did). Now we are planning to purchase a paddle specifically designed to leave a mark on my bottom spelling “Mistress,” or perhaps her name? I am so pleased with the direction our relationship is taking. Thanks for reading such a long post. Just wanted to share-

> Changeable said: > She allowed me to look through her answers and it was apparent she really did want to punish, humiliate and inflict pain. She actually has a lot of sadistic and controlling tendencies. I would have never believed it of my sweet, thoughtful, kind, vegan fiance. > Click to expand... There were hints.

There were indeed. Some things she would laugh about, while some painful aspects she was eager to try out. But back then, I thought it was just another book I gave her to read. She was always so careful with her expression. I never suspected she had any real passion for the subject.