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Just to give some context… I’m a natural submissive and really want control from a woman. I’ve been self-locking for roughly two weeks now, seeking out someone female to assist me. A few years back, when I was ‘available’ for Dommes to claim, I became friends with someone - let’s call her ‘Lady D’. We have known each other about 10 years and she has agreed to hold my key. One lock will be stored in a hard-to-reach spot… like frozen inside a water bottle for emergencies… but she is keeping the other one. I receive my paycheck this Friday and am purchasing new locks and keys for the event. In exchange, I have promised to crochet items for her (scarves and blankets). She mentioned, “I’ve wanted to control you for 10 years.” This won’t change things drastically beyond what we already have since she is engaged and getting married next year, while I am also married (my wife has a boyfriend and doesn’t mind if someone else keeps me locked), but it feels nice to take that further step. It’s somewhat nerve-wracking though. Once the key goes in the mail and heads her way, the device stays on. I wear it at work, when shopping, etc. It just stays there. To be honest, I am ***really ***looking forward to this because it is a step I’ve wanted for some time; I simply needed a woman to help me achieve it. The core concept here is submission. Her rules apply. Placing that much trust in another person is significant, and I look forward to melting into her.