Chastity and orgasm denial discussion

Lately, things have been going quite well for us in the world of chastity. My Goddess is wonderful, and she’s starting to really embrace her ownership of my cock and exercise control over me. She locked me up last week.

Usually, when we go to bed, I cuddle with her and run my hands all over her body. I know sometimes she just wants to sleep, but I can hardly help myself. Typically, this leads to her letting me out so I don’t cum while staying close enough that I keep touching her—a habit I wish she would stop.

This time, however, as I started scooting closer to her, she immediately said, “No, not tonight. You are not to touch me.” I was surprised and kind of pleaded for permission to just lie against her. She replied, “I need sleep, and you need to stay on your side of the bed and learn not to touch me. When I want you, I’ll come up here. I love you, sweetie; now go to sleep.”

It was the first time she truly exercised her power over me to get exactly what she wanted, regardless of my feelings. It drove me crazy. My cock swelled immediately in its cage, and I began feeling frustrated, even a bit pissed off. I thought, “How dare she tell me not to touch her? I want her to make me pleasure her, rather than making me stay away.” I had wanted to cum more than I have since starting this locked routine. That frantic sensation kept me awake for a while.

Lying there frustrated and angry yet incredibly horny, I started feeling a calmness wash over me. I realized this was exactly what I wanted. She held the keys; she owned my cock. She didn’t want it near her right now, and she used that power to ensure it stayed away. Suddenly, I felt indebted to her. Consumed with love for her and affection because she embraced what I had asked of her, I realized I was truly being submissive—perhaps for the first time. I didn’t touch her that night.

I eventually fell asleep and dreamed about her, which only increased my frustration the next day. She is embracing her role more every moment, and I adore her deeply.

She has never really wanted to do anything anally with me before. She’s said it wouldn’t happen and had no interest in it. Well, five days ago, while I was licking her and using a rubber cock on her ass, she suddenly announced, “I want to do this to you.” I thought I’d misunderstood. “You mean fuck me anally?” I asked. She said yes and told me to hand over the lube. I jumped at the order, soon lying face-down with my locked cock facing her between my legs. She quickly covered my asshole in lubricant and thrust the rubber cock into me. It was almost overwhelming. She pounded it in and out while I writhed and moaned. She pressed it deep all the way in, shaking hard from side to side and grabbing my balls simultaneously.

She said she wanted me to cum like this, but something I haven’t been able to do—nor did so that night. I apologized. After pounding me for a few more minutes, she threw the rubber cock onto the floor, lay back, and remarked, “That was actually pretty fun.”

I proceeded to fuck her with the monster black cock I bought her for Valentine’s Day, paired with her Hitachi magic wand. She came viciously all over the bed. I stayed there soaking in her wet spot for the rest of the night as we cuddled. She said, “I hope you enjoyed it because it will be a long time before I fuck you like that again.”

I thanked her for being so gracious and giving, and we went to sleep. I’m hoping she isn’t exaggerating how long it’ll take; I am grateful she did something for me that I’ve always really wanted. And since I think she actually enjoyed it, maybe it will happen more often than she suggests. Whatever the case, I am completely enthralled with everything about her. I can’t imagine what might come if she lets me stay locked up for an extended period.

Maybe someday she will, and we’ll see.