Female led relationships discussion

As my wife and I try to grow into this day by day, I was wondering what was your life like before you found your dominant counterpart. I mean how many of these things did you explore on your own, prior to finding someone to share it with, or sharing it with someone. As for myself, I certainly fantasized and explored and ready anything I could. I even bought a toy or two (or three or four but who is counting). I think the fact that I did some of this is a bit of a turn off for her, because I am ahead of her, and at a minimum it was impolite to leave her behind. Yes I freely admit I should have shared this with her 10 years ago when we first met, but I didn’t and I am more than happy to spend the rest of my life making it up to her. Anyway, what were your experiences like before you found your Domme/Master, and have your past experiences contributed to any difficulties in your current relationships? ChasteBr