Female led relationships discussion

I’ve been away from here for the past month mostly because June was likely one of the most frustrating months I can remember. If there was a chance for something to fail, it did. Mistress let me have two orgasms during that period, even though one got completely ruined, hoping this would ease some of the stress. As you’d expect, I became quite difficult and slipped back into older habits. Definitely not acting like she’s used to. Then on Saturday the 30th, we had a wonderful day. It felt as if a curse was finally broken. Mistress experienced several orgasms, while I got none in return. Tuesday followed suit, as did last Saturday. The only change those days were that I wasn’t allowed inside her. For me, that is painful no matter what. HOWEVER, over these ten days my behavior has improved and I’ve been more helpful than I have in months. On Sunday morning while we drank coffee like usual, she looked at me and said, ‘You know, letting you orgasm anymore really doesn’t make sense. We both end up miserable. I think we’ll stop it for now, and instead reward you by letting you inside me. So if I were you, I’d definitely behave.’ Needless to say, I was surprised and thrilled. It felt like things had moved up a notch with more at stake. After thinking about it for a couple of days, I’m worried about how long this will last. But then I remind myself that Mistress does what’s best as always, so she’ll let it go if needed. I know she is right; if I just follow instructions, everything will work out.