Introductions discussion

Hi there! I signed up today after finding this site via Chastity Planet, if memory serves. I’m British, standing at 6ft tall and weighing around 14 stone. Although I am over the hill (40+), I have little experience with Femdom despite always finding it appealing. This goes back to my teens when I spotted one of my dad’s books in the trash bin. It was a collection of letters sent to their forum by various members. While not exclusively about femdom, one letter really stood out: a female Domme who crafted a chastity belt from a pantie girdle and kept her husband locked inside it. I suspect I might be a sissie since I’ve often fantasized about being feminized, held in bondage & serving a Domme, or living as a girl while serving either a Mistress or Master. To confess my attractions: I am strongly drawn to women but also deeply obsessed with fellatio—but only when acting like a girl or dressed up as one. Otherwise, men don’t attract me much at all. Recently, the idea of being kept in chastity and allowed orgasm solely through anal penetration has been on my mind more frequently. I’ve done some online chatting via IRC TV & BDSM chatrooms, but nothing face-to-face except for vanilla sex. To be honest about what I’m looking for: not entirely sure yet. I tend to be shy & reserved in real life. I suppose I’d like genuine interaction and intimate discussion, plus a chance to try a few things R/L (real life), so hello there! Ps: I really love the name Emily and often call myself Emily or variants like Emilee.