Journals and blogs discussion

First off, let me thank everyone on this site for providing so much informative, educational, inspirational, funny, sidesplitting information that I can relate to. This is the reason I am writing this journal. Hopefully some folks can help me out, and maybe I can help someone else in return.

A little about me and my wonderfully caring, loving, understanding, wicked (when she wants to be), incredibly sexy wife, Miss J. I am in the US Army, she is a full time Mom and Housewife. We are both very good at our jobs, and take pride in what we do. We have three daughters, ages ranging from 2 months to 5 ears old, and I am in deep trouble when they grow up. They got their Mother’s beauty!!!!!!! Aww F-CK!!!!!

My wife and I have been dabbling in the D/s game (monogamously) for a few years now. I came out to her with it and that was not a problem. The problem arose when she confessed shortly thereafter a fantasy (in the throes of passion) that she thought of me and another man together. I proceeded to tell her that I had in fact been with men on two different occasions; once before the Army (ten years ago), and once while in the Army (before we met). This all happened while I was on two weeks of leave from my first deployment to Iraq, and I had to leave two or three days later to return to duty, which meant tht all the emotions and confsion that she had to sort through with me was done via email and instant messaging. The phones in Iraq are terribly non-private so this was not an option. BIG LESSON: communication is key! Luckily she is the woman that she is and she came to grips with the fact tht her manly man was bi. While this was tough on both of us, I had a huge weight off my chest as I had kept this hidden from all the important people in my life. At this point our oldest daughter was three and we were succesfully trying (unbeknownst to us) for our second! Now keep in mind that I wear blue jeans and biker t-shirts, own a 60’s Triumph Chopper and I am in the Infantry. I have been able to keep this from the world so far (I think), so she is stunned to say the least! Well we get it sortd out and continue on our merry way and I nearly screw up online, not once, but twice. The first time with a girl and the second with a guy. I came very close to meeting people outside of our marriage in selfih fits of idiocy. Knowing that she is worried I may feel he “bi” itch and need to go scratch it. Stupid. It is now my crusade to prove that I only need her in my life (and a nice dildo every now and again!!)

Which brings us to now: I have recently returned home from my second tour and realized that not only would my wife be dealing with a 5 year old and a 3 year old, but she would have a newborn as well- I NEED TO STEP IT UP to help her. She will go crazy if I stick to my old ways of sitting around the house and using my job in the Military as an excuse for being lazy. Well I ordered a couple of books pertaining to kink, one of which was Lucy Fairbourne’s Male Chastity and another that was not so kinky called Worshipping your Wfie by Mark Remond. I considered the book on chastity as I have always enjoyed the thought of my wife controlling my orgasms, I never thought she would pick it up and read it herself… Well she is very interested to say the least and we have read both of those books together. We are now awaiting the arrival of a Steelworx Revenge device.

I am proud to say that we are practicing mental chasity with great results while we wait and my household duties include (when I am home) all dishes, folding the laundry (I will learn to sort so I can take over the whole laundry cycle), taking care of the dog, as well as the normal manly chores. I feel as if I am falling in love with my wife all over again, and I cannot wait to see where this takes us.

It is still a chore for me to get her to take the initiative in the D/s respect (feels like I am topping from the bottom). She seems happy and content with everything we have done so far, I just need her input on what turns her on, and anything she might like to introduce to our play time.

Last night was a nice tease and denial session followed by her decision to sleep without panties (WHICH SHE NEVER DOES) as a reward for me being good. I snuggled up to her all night long and fantasized about it today which led to her decision to do it again, only this time as a tease technique…

We’ll see how it goes as I have told her that I am interested in living a female led lifestyle in which she has control of EVERYTHING,including my penis and orgasms, and she seems to like the idea.

This is an open discussion for all, so advice as well as questions are welcome!!!!!!!!!! Be safe and have fun everyone.:party-110: